Without reading my previous statement, I would like to first say the things which have been going right for me.
It's been a slow crawl ever since the rebranding effort in early 2022, it was quite the leap mentally trying to recover somekind of forward facing persona I could use offline as well as online but the disconnect is so engraved that the leap gets further and further the longer I leave it. I've been getting back in touch with alot of old artists I knew in communities before I took the long silence or distraction and it's working, like I'm being invited to take part in projects, make content for people and there's some kind of image immerging from it which might unite mind and body but it still needs some work. I'm just happy that all these connections and people, well at least the majority of them, are still around. I really haven't gone that long.
Just quickly skimming through my last statement and man, I have an update on a few things there too. The university groups are abit of a bust though I am in contact with some other course mates so as a minor takeaway, new people there. The Game Art discord server continues to attract new members and even has persistant conversations between members so at long last, I've created a community which not only likes what I do, but also strives to create and share amongst themselves too, which is awesome. This means Art, as in my illustrative/animation stuff has taken more of a secondary role BUT, infact this has reduced the pressure on me to really make whatever I like, as long as I consider my audience, let's not get too crazy now. I've taken a bigger attempt at supporting other creators too by buying stuff. Which is always cool right? actually buying your friend's work.
Anyway, still gotta watch more shows and more tutorials. Keep putting that off. I'll be back soon to add more thoughts.