So as mentioned in my last post, the 3D modding scene has got me in it's
clutches again but for serious this time, I'm done, every side project I
got going is going on hiatus cause multiple aliases might be alright
for an escape but now it's just me avoiding stuff. Plus one of my mod
projects didn't really exceed the way I wanted, happy with the work but
it's just wasted energy.
2 months in, I want to clear my to do list, finish the pinkamena party
wiki and art collab and something different, start downloading tunes
from youtube so i don't overly rely on some site which takes down tunes I
like, now I can listen to my tunes wherever without the internet
woooooo.
I started FRECKLESHARK in 2022 because I felt something had gone wrong
along the way, a soft reset to go back to how I was in 2014 where I was
much happier, not plagued by world events or fearing about sharing
myself with others. I felt like I was mean't to be the unifier, and have
that gift to bring people together. I missed going to cons, making
stuff for people, being involved in projects. I didn't even get invited
back to Pinkamena Party, I just turned up one day and began making
stuff, so that was like forcefully doing it cause I just really wanted
to be part of that scene again. three conventions down, I'm always
wandering around, speaking to anyone I vaguely know or remember from the
early fandom days. I don't have those past goals of getting followers
or money like I guess others have, I just want to create this identity
or sense of self that I can be content with.
